Sorry that I've been MIA this last week. I didn't mean to be but life got in the way again. I'm still working on thinking of what I want to do on the blog. I guess I'll talk out my thoughts here, and you readers can toss me your input.
So weight loss. This is still very important to me. I'm struggling with it though. I'll do really well for a few days, controlling my calories and exercising. But then everything falls apart. I've been yo-yoing between 262 and 265 for the last month or so. My plan isn't very complicated. It's to control my calories. I use Lose It to get an estimation of what my daily calorie intake should be. It's in the 1800 range and that's an okay amount. I've done that before. But for some reason, I just can't get my shit together this time. And for exercise, it's to do yoga twice a day, walk Noel every day and do cardio 3 days a week, and strength 3 days a week. Honestly, I don't think the plan itself is the problem. I think it's the application. Am I focusing too much on the big picture? I keep eyeing 145 pounds. But maybe I need to back off. Maybe I need to focus on completing a day at a time. Getting to 250 pounds. Then 225. And so on. Breaking that almost 120 pounds up into smaller, easier-to-manage chunks. I don't know.
And then I'm also struggling with the blogging about weight loss thing. I do not want this to be just a weight loss blog. So I don't want to blog about it too much. But how much should I blog about it? Once a week? Twice a week? Every other week? I don't know. I'm so confused about the whole thing. Do I even blog about it? When I lost weight before (from 265 to 198 about 5 years ago) I didn't blog at all. But the last few years, every time I start blogging about losing weight, I end up stalling. Is it the blog? Am I putting too much pressure on myself to be like the success stories that I read? I wish there was a Magic 8 Ball that would give me the real answers. Not the weird little floating triangle answers. But real answers. Like whether I'm on the right track or not.
I also said I wanted to start blogging about music. Well, that's on hold. I haven't touched either the piano or the guitar for a few weeks because there's always just something else that needs to be done. It's extremely frustrating for me. I need to make more time for music. That may be why I'm constantly feeling so unsettled and unable to settle into anything.
I mentioned that I wanted to write about writing. Well, I haven't done anything "serious." I've only been writing fan-fic. Criminal Minds fan-fic. No, I haven't watched this season. Yes, I know that Prentiss is leaving. Which sucks. I'm still thinking about whether I want to post my actual fiction here, or post it on another blog. I'm still leaning towards another blog. Then if you want to read it, you can. If you don't, you don't have to.
My last post also mentioned wanting to write about things like photography, fashion, cooking, books, movies, tv. Still haven't decided how I'm going to do that. I guess we'll have to cross those bridges when we get to them.
There was another idea that I had. I wanted to start having panels on the blog. Like expert panel types. I thought I could pose a few questions on a theme about whatever, and people could send in their answers. Then I could feature some of the answers. Any thoughts on the idea?
Alright, wrapping up now.